my heart is beating quickly as i write this note today. as i watched my husband work around our home today, i think of the many times that i take him for granted, he is the hardest worker i have ever seen. he is constantly looking for ways to make our life easier and our home better for our family, building beds for our kids, painting things for their room, working in the yard, even cooking on the grill, which he does magnificently, many times a week. God has blessed my life with him and i know it. but, many times these things seem like just everyday living and not extraordinary. so, i overlook them being unappreciative and calloussed and definitely not enjoying him the way that i should. at those times it seems i am partaking of the fruit of the lies that the enemy has whispered in my ear.
but, today for some reason, my heart and thoughts toward him are of the sweetest kind and i keep feeling as if he is extaordinary, as if he is the greatest gift God could have given me, next to my salvation of course. wow! this feeling in me is not something i could conjure up myself. i feel the Spirit of God moving in my heart and making my heart soft and tender toward him, like He is breaking up the uncultivated, fallow ground, the hard and unappreciative parts, in me and gently planting His thoughts about my husband in my heart. i keep hearing the words in my head, "sowing seeds of righteouness, reaping loving kindness." as i receive God's truth in my heart, it seems like the fruit is almost immediate in me as to how i want to reach out to aaron in loving and kind ways. i keep thinking he is just perfect in every way. i can't think of one thing that he does that makes me irritated or frustrated with him, not one thing. every time i think about him, my stomach does a flip, like it used to when we were first falling in love. i found myself thinking that i can't wait until tonight when we are all done with our kids activities and household duties so i can cuddle up next to him on the couch with his arms around me and tell him that i love him. i am excited to partake of the full harvest of the planting of the seeds of righteousness that God is planting in me today.
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