ok so after yesterday's post telling the many adventures of my 13 month old son's daily routine, today was a new adventure. we also have two dogs in our family. dodger is our 75 lb golden retriever. he is 12 1/2. and, angel is our 25 lb beagle. she is 3 1/2. Here is a familiar scene in our home of them sharing their water bowl. its pretty sweet. i took this picture several months ago. the date on this picture is wrong.
the toilet was not jacob's interest today. he found a new interest. what is it with my little son? longing to play in the filth of a toilet and now drinking with the dogs? i think he was just another object lesson sent from God to me today.
after i ran to get my camera to take this shot, laughing alot because i thought it was so cute, i told jacob, "no, no, jacob! we don't get our drink where the doggies do. we drink from a clean sippie cup." and, i picked up the dog bowl, so he couldn't go back to it and handed him his sippie cup. he gladly took it because i don't think he was really able to get much from the dog bowl anyway and he was thirsty.
this funny incident reminded me of a time a couple of years ago when i was getting ready to go somewhere and i was in a hurry, as usual. dodger, my golden retriever, kept following me around from room to room, just looking at me like he wanted something from me. i thought maybe he wanted outside. but, that wasn't it. i had already fed him so i knew that wasn't it. then i thought maybe he wanted a drink. his water bowl was not empty but i put some fresh water in it anyway. sure enough, that is what he wanted, fresh water. now, that surprised me because i had not known him to care if his water was fresh before. i continued getting ready and i began to think about how interesting it was to me that he knew where to go to get what he wanted, the good stuff. i knew that even if his water bowl had been empty, he knew where to get a drink if he was thirsty enough. i had caught him drinking from the toilet a number of times. but today, he was coming to his provider for the provision that i could offer him, clean, fresh, cold water to drink. trying on his own to meet his own needs would get him toilet water, but looking to me, his provider, got him the best that i could offer him.
then, my thoughts returned to my sweet baby jacob and how he keeps returning to the toilet over and over and now he is drinking the dog's water. the clean, fresh water that i got dodger and angel this morning is not the best for jacob. and he definitely does not belong in the toilet. and, if he listens to me and trusts me and comes to me to take care of him, i will provide what is best for him. but, he must believe that i can give him what is better than he can get on his own. i thought to myself that today jacob and dodger are the perfect object lessons for me, showing me that if i just go about my life trying to live in my own understanding and not depending on God to provide what is best for me, i keep ending up in the toilet and drinking dog water when His provision for me is so much better.
just some insights into my thoughts and feelings about my life and what God is revealing to me and how i am experiencing His grace and mercy in so many ways. please feel free to comment and share your heart here too. i'd love to hear from you. you never know whose life you just might touch with your insights as well.
My First Blog Entry March 27, 2009
laying my heart at the feet of Jesus well, here goes. not really sure how this is going to go but i do believe it is in my heart to begin to share some of the things that God is doing in my life and secrets that live in my heart. i've really been inspired by a blog that i have just begun to read by a young, sweet mommy (what she calls herself). happening upon her blog was not an accident but, i believe, a direction from the Lord. as i have read much of what she has written from her heart, i've been moved to tears and smiled a lot, enjoying partaking of what she has shared. wondering if anything that i have to share might move anyone as her writings have moved me, i thought that i just might let some of my heart be opened to those interested in hearing the secrets in the heart of a wife and mom who sometimes feels as if she might drown in the difficulties of raising five children if it weren't for my God who is ever so merciful and His Grace who is ever so powerful. as i write this, tears stream down my own face, thinking of some of the situations that i am laying at the feet of Jesus at this very moment in my life. this seems to make it plain to me that going forward with this new adventure of blogging may just be a way for God to continue to remind me of His love and His goodness toward me. open heart surgery, with God's love as the knife, that's kind of what it feels like. cutting away the dead, useless pieces and repairing it with His intense, unconditional love. i hope that a few people are touched and moved to sharing their lives as well by reading some of what i may reveal of myself as i continue to lay my heart at his feet and trust Him to keep it and make it whole.
i am a wife of 19 years to my wonderful husband, aaron. a mom of 6 precious children (josiah 17, rachel 16, olivia 14, amanda 12, jacob 3, & our newest addition, baby jonah, born may 18, 2011. my life is full and exciting as i depend upon God to empower me to take on the everyday tasks that are set before me. i love God with all my heart as He has revealed His amazing love for me. i love sharing many of the things He has shown me in a Bible study at my church. allowing Him to use me to unveil Truth is a very big part of my life. it is just all so "GOOD!"