naturally, i am a very content person. i enjoy the daily things that i do. i do not get the itch to always be doing something new. i do not change the decor in my home very often. i decorate it the way i like it and i like it for a very long time. it is easy for me to stay home and just do nothing. i enjoy having friends over. we do that a lot. but, i want to be able to do that with people who just like being with me and my family, for us. i do not want to have to impress them in any way. when i go some place new, i do not feel the need for someone to have to make a mad dash over to me to make me feel comfortable. i feel comfortable if someone talks to me and i feel comfortable if they don't. i say all that to say it would normally be ok with me to stay home with just my family and not venture out to involve myself in much else. but, i'm feeling like there is a new thing that God is doing inside of me and i am very excited. i can not really explain it, but it feels like a stirring towards community, being a part of something that is bigger than just me or me and my family by ourselves.
you would think that the place to step out in this urging within me would be my local church. i am very involved there. i help to administrate the children's department and i teach a weekly Bible study. sometimes i will speak on Sunday mornings if our pastor needs a break or will be out of town. so, there is definitely involvement there. but whatever this is going on inside of me is different. honestly, i can not put my finger on it. i have never liked busying myself in things for the sake of being busy. big programs that are purposed for saying, "look at what great thing we just did for God" never interested me. and they still don't. i feel like God is wanting to do more relationship building in me that moves me toward accomplishing a oneness with others that shows the great thing that God has done and is doing in His people by magnifying His love in us and toward one another. i don't know what is going to come of this but i can say that i am very excited. i am sure i have more understanding coming of what He is doing in me. as it is revealed to me, i will share it here.
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