i just came across this photo the other day from an old neighbor friend. and along with it came so many childhood memories flooding through my mind. this is the neighborhood that i grew up in. i am standing here on the far right with my sister and the two neighbor friends that we played with most of our childhood. i think that i am about six and my sister would be four. as i sit here and look at myself so many years ago, i can still remember so vividly some of the thoughts and feelings that i experienced at this age and even younger and how those memories of my childhood formed who i am today. sometimes, i think we do not realize how much of life that children are aware of. truly, they are probably too smart for their own good. we think, "oh they are just kids, they do not really understand what is going on." but, let me tell you they understand so much more than we think that they do. i can remember how i thought at age six and when i think about it now, i realize we do not give kids enough credit for how intelligent that they are concerning awareness of the people in their life. i could see through people's masks even then. i knew who was for real. i knew who lived in lies. and, i knew it when someone just needed to be accepted and befriended. all that i am today is the result of the learning experiences of friendships and life that i had as a kid. i need to remember that the same is true for my own children. they are so much smarter and more aware that i have realized. definitely, too smart for their own good.
just some insights into my thoughts and feelings about my life and what God is revealing to me and how i am experiencing His grace and mercy in so many ways. please feel free to comment and share your heart here too. i'd love to hear from you. you never know whose life you just might touch with your insights as well.
My First Blog Entry March 27, 2009
laying my heart at the feet of Jesus well, here goes. not really sure how this is going to go but i do believe it is in my heart to begin to share some of the things that God is doing in my life and secrets that live in my heart. i've really been inspired by a blog that i have just begun to read by a young, sweet mommy (what she calls herself). happening upon her blog was not an accident but, i believe, a direction from the Lord. as i have read much of what she has written from her heart, i've been moved to tears and smiled a lot, enjoying partaking of what she has shared. wondering if anything that i have to share might move anyone as her writings have moved me, i thought that i just might let some of my heart be opened to those interested in hearing the secrets in the heart of a wife and mom who sometimes feels as if she might drown in the difficulties of raising five children if it weren't for my God who is ever so merciful and His Grace who is ever so powerful. as i write this, tears stream down my own face, thinking of some of the situations that i am laying at the feet of Jesus at this very moment in my life. this seems to make it plain to me that going forward with this new adventure of blogging may just be a way for God to continue to remind me of His love and His goodness toward me. open heart surgery, with God's love as the knife, that's kind of what it feels like. cutting away the dead, useless pieces and repairing it with His intense, unconditional love. i hope that a few people are touched and moved to sharing their lives as well by reading some of what i may reveal of myself as i continue to lay my heart at his feet and trust Him to keep it and make it whole.
i am a wife of 19 years to my wonderful husband, aaron. a mom of 6 precious children (josiah 17, rachel 16, olivia 14, amanda 12, jacob 3, & our newest addition, baby jonah, born may 18, 2011. my life is full and exciting as i depend upon God to empower me to take on the everyday tasks that are set before me. i love God with all my heart as He has revealed His amazing love for me. i love sharing many of the things He has shown me in a Bible study at my church. allowing Him to use me to unveil Truth is a very big part of my life. it is just all so "GOOD!"